Its been a while since i updated my blog. Yes, im attached, again. But im not a despo or anything. I love my boyfriend kkkkk? Yep, things are not going well as planned. In a sense that family problems are getting worse but as for relationship wise, its alright :) papa, mama saw my tattoo. Pissed is the only word i can use. Other than that, everyting like weird weird one leh.

You know, i feel like damn fucked up. I hope that this relationship won't end up like the ones in the past. Yes, i know i must appreciate what i have. Im clear bout that, but i can't pull myself together to REALLY DO IT. I know its not hard but, its fucking difficult to me. Even though i promise of staying with him, by his side. But i feel that, sooner or later, he will get sick of me. So, if i don't do anything bout it soon, both of us will get hurt badly. I want him by my side forever. But what if we can't? I don't know... really :( YES, i want to treat him good, but, i don't know how to. I love you banana. Really.